I was so much older then

I have a hard time talking to friends my age when they start saying they are old.
I guess I just don't understand it.
I have never felt younger or better than I do today.
I have never been so healthy!
I have never ever ever enjoyed life so much!

The guess the truth is, I have already been old!

I was old when my friends were living away at college and I was in a tiny apartment, working two jobs and taking care of my two little babies.
I did old when they were backpacking Europe, laying on a beach somewhere and planning their perfect wedding and I was taking kids to Girl Scouts and Karate and Little League and being Room Mother and Team Mom and School Board Vice President.
And, while these friends were starting careers and doing happy hour and climbing the corporate ladder, I got REALLY old while waiting for teenagers to come home, teaching them to drive, and helping them survive their first heartbreak.
In the mean time, I cooked, cleaned, did laundry and ran a household while working full time and taking college classes part time. I was thrashed at the end of every day.
Yep...I've already been old.

And I am so much younger now...

Today I work a job I absolutely love and have a nice, clean, quiet home. I (finally) finished college and don't have to drive carpool or make lunches anymore.
And I haven't had to build anything out of sugar cubes for nearly 20 years.
I do what I love and love what I do...every single day.

I just don't think it has anything to do with our age.
It's simply life stage.

I have just started living and plan to go a very long time.
There are just too many things I haven't done yet...ski a black diamond run, skydive, be at a Dodgers World Series game...fall in love...and so much more.
I am blessed with good health and the energy to keep on going!
Of course I'm getting older...but I am not getting old.

When we are 80 and skiing in Mammoth or playing tennis or standing atop the Eiffel tower...
I will remind them of how they thought they were old when we were in our mid 40s.
I promise you, at that point, they will know what a fool they were to have not appreciated our youth.
This is the youngest we will ever be!
These are the best days of our life.
Be young and enjoy it with me.

...there's still time to change the road you're on.

~Led Zeppelin

A pooh attitude

I was laying in the bathtub tonight (yep, with a glass of wine) thinking--and crying--but mostly thinking...I am in the most amazing place in life right now. I am literally living the life that I always DREAMED of. I own a beautiful home, I have an incredible job, I have an AWESOME car. And I have two great kids who are fun, loving, kind, educated, independent adults. I have thousands of photographs and amazing memories from all the trips and adventures I have experienced over the years. I have great relationships with my extended family...and most of them live within a few miles. And I have friends! I have SO many deep, genuine friendships!
In the last few weeks I've been out with friends for drinks, to dinner, to the gym, to the movies...even sat one night with an high school friend talking til 3am. (And I am SO looking forward to my trip to Spring Training with my baseball loving cousins and friends!)
I say it and I mean it--LIFE IS GOOD!
Tonight is the first night in I don't know how long that I am not out. I am wrapped up in a blanket here on the couch...relaxing and reading and catching up on my recorded TV shows.
And it's kind of nice.
The thing is, there is still one thing I am hoping for--one thing that I still feel is missing: a man to love me and man for me to love. (Ideally, this will be the same man.) Someone who will hold my hand and kiss me and laugh with me and lay with me and relax with me...and look at me and smile. Someone to just BE with me.
Hmm, I just figured it out...
I've got plenty of people to do things with.
I just don't have anyone I can do nothing with.

That's all. It's fine. Life goes on and once again I will admit--if this is as good as it gets, it's pretty dang good.
Almost feel guilty hoping for that one more thing.
Almost.

Blahhhg

OK! OK!

Dodgers in the Infield

When I moved into my new home three years ago,
this was the first picture I hung on my wall.
Ron Cey, Bill Russell, Davey Lopes and Steve Garvey

Having played eight and a half seasons together for the Dodgers, they are baseball's longest playing infield.
Besides Bobby Sherman, I think they were my first loves.

Allison Wonderland

Allison lead worship last night at Mariner's Church...
and it was absolutely amazing.
She is amazing! Though so much of her heart is in Kenya--and right now she would love more than anything to be helping in Haiti--there is no doubt that she is exactly where she is supposed to be!
Her voice, her passion, and her ability to encourage others to worship--not to mention her incredible confidence!--is truly a gift.
Someday, I hope I can be just like her.